Depression

Everything written from this post on Depression is true. You don't know anything about depression until you experience it yourself. But that doesn't mean that you can't conquer it, with the help from people who really want to help you and you believing that you are stronger than depression. 

Leaving Behind

What is something you want to leave behind for the people who were involved and a great part of your life when you die? Every time I'm asked that question it had always been as a way for me to look good. But if I had to decide as if I was breathing the last few minutes or seconds of my life would be. I want everyone that I deeply cared about and whoever was in my life, I would want them to have a love so deep it all pointed to God.. Memories of you will fade in time so why would we want to waste spending our lives pleasing ourselves when we are called to be representing Christ. As I was thinking about this I was reminded of a song by a band of the name "Sidewalk Prophets, Live Like That," "I want to show the world the love he gave for me, longing for the world to know the glory of the king." What a beautiful thing to leave behind.. Wanting the world to know Jesus and not focusing on the good you did for the world.

Nothing is worse than fear itself. Fear controls a huge part of your life. I know I have done many things I've later regret because of fear. Fear comes in many way, in more ways then we know. For me it controls so much of my life. Some days I wake up terrified of just waking up and screwing up my day. "What if a simple mistake could destroy someone's life." "What can't I feel courageous?" Those are lies that fear grows when you believe them. It can turn someone into a someone they're not. Every since I was little,  I would tell myself "I can do this, I'm stronger than fear itself.." And I'm still telling myself that to this day.