Be My Healer

                                             One of my favorite song..Jesus is the healer for everything in life.

The Past is in the Past

Most of us have things from our past that cause us to move forward in life. Many of us believe to have moved on from our past. But looking back there is always something from your past that will never be forgotten but that doesn't mean you can't or haven't moved on from it. A few days ago as I was talking to my mentor Jill we were talking about relationships and our past. And I realized that I needed to leave what happened in the past be the past, it took me to where I am today but it won't make my choices for me. From them I've given options, to change or let the past become the present and maybe the future. A line from a song by Jenny Simmons says "I'm not holding back til next year I'm living for today." No one wants to live in the past or hold on to the future when they should be living for the present.

Life holds Beauty

I'm surrounded by such beauty in this world. What does the word "Beauty" mean? Such a depth word that holds such a strong meaning. For me I see it in a merely how each color is expressed, or the one a person expresses themselves doing something they love. Beauty is also found in people. Everyone has beauty in them, even if they don't feel beautiful on the outside there's always beauty in them just waiting to come out. I love discovering Beauty.

Disappointments

The feeling you get when you disappoint someone who means so much to you. That you can't bear to look them in the eyes because all you see is how much you disappointed them. No matter what you do, however many times you disappoint God, you can always run to him and he forgives. Your disappointments and failure are already dealt forgotten. It's hard for me to accept that whenever I feel like I just disappointed someone in my life and I will never have them look at me without that hanging over us..

Ups and downs of life

Each person goes through ups and downs. Let me tell you a story....

Once upon a time there was this girl who had just joined a family who already had 7 kids, they adopted a little boy who was a year and a half younger than her. They were the biggest family in their church, continuing to expand, they added 4 more kids, which were birth naturally and healthy by the mother. So much trauma had already been built in the young girl's life that it became a rocky start with the family. You would think the story gets better... Well for awhile everything was going great..the young girl started to adjust to being in such a large family. But by the time she was 10 she discovered sharp objects in the way that was harmful. By the time she reached the age of 13 she became a different person, lost joy and life in things she loved most. Most importantly her family.. She started resenting them wishing for she was never a part of the wonderful family she was given. By the time she turned 14 life just kept getting worse and worse but she chose to do something about it. She devoted herself and time to be around people who were discovering life and new things. She discovered that it was the only thing that made her feel happy inside and not just on her face. She started mentoring with a friend who became one of her closest friends. Life was slowly getting back on the right track. Her past life seemed to be a thing in the past...

Life has a way of putting so many things that make it harder for you to want to go on but it doesn't have to let it be the only thing you see. Look for the good things and go for them.