Favoritism

All this week I have been thinking about Favoritism and why it exist in my or why I hate it so much.

Who do I favor above the rest

When I was younger and found out what favoritism was it all was through the story of Jacob and Esau in the bible. My dad would read us bible stories before bed and one of the nights it was about Esau getting tricked of his blessing  If you've read the bible the first time he trades his birth right for a bowl of soup and the second one was Jacob dressed up as him to get his blessing. But at the beginning of it all it talks about how each parent favored one over the other thus I discovered favoritism. I always told myself that I wasn't going to go down the route of choosing someone or something over the other. But when I was thinking about this I realized that I have and I do. I have a favorite cousin, a cousin that is 7 and a half years younger than me. One who used to look up to me in so many ways that though I may have acted as if I didn't enjoy it, I used it for my selfish gain. But I really did have a period in my life I held him in my highest standard, in the manner of favoritism. Where now as he's almost 14 he could care less if I held him higher than all my other cousins including his siblings. I had a favorite "Mandate girl" in the young years of my life, where I tried to stick to them like glue or even get them to like me. I also held them higher than all the rest of the mandate student for running 6-7 years. There was talk around some of the kids I adore that Sarah was my favorite and that the Bumstead kids are my favorite, but sometimes among the Bumstead kids it's always Ella.

Why I think Favoritism is Bad: 

We're all supposed to love everyone equally, even if I did a poorly job showing that growing up, I hope to make it not where I'm singling out one person and holding them high above everyone else. Where I can only feel I can give my life only to one person. As much as we have one heart, we can still give each invisible piece to everyone we come in contact with daily or who's walking with us. I feel like Favoritism is directed towards one purpose.
  I hate the question that I'm constantly asked "Who's your favorite kids to babysit." Some kids may be easier to watch but doesn't make them less than the others I babysit. I try to give each and every kids I babysit my undivided attention which sometimes can be hard, but I try to make them each feel special in their own way.

Overall thoughts on Favoritism

I'm not saying that you should agree with me that favoritism is wrong. My thoughts are just being shared and crash and burn them all you want. My hopes for me is to love more freely and not fall into favoritism because I think how my mind tells me "Not everyone is trustworthy, or this person feels right more then this person or this person etc. With my mind working in that mindset, I tend to go there. And maybe there's a better approach in loving more than singling out. Or maybe it's a good thing once in awhile. Who knows, I just hope to be better and love more freely.