Beauty is not Perfection

I'm going to be real for a sec, or longer. Basically this entire post.

I remember a year or a few years ago my friend Ashley asked what was beauty. I remember giving a answer that everyone said or something I was trying to convince myself it was. But a few weeks ago I was asked if I thought I was beautiful. When I was asked that my first thought was "If I thought I was my insecurity would be gone from that." But instead I gave an Anne of Green Gable response when she said that she didn't like red hair. "I can imagine that I had beautiful skin and beautiful eyes but not with such a plain complexion. Can you imagine being divinely beautiful." As dramatic as that sounds I proceeded to tell the person that I don't really look at myself and tell myself I'm beautiful, and when she asked if I would rather have it told by someone who loved me or some stranger it got me thinking.

I work in a place where I see people coming from all over Corvallis, Oregon and other states. I have had people walk up to me and tell me that I was pretty, some were drunk or high and just hitting on me, and some may have genuine meant it but it never felt real. I never felt beautiful so why when someone else say it should I believe it when I didn't? I often read from quotes and books that beauty is not from the outside but it's what's in the heart. And I do believe that. What you feed inwardly gets shown outwardly.

My insecurity has shown me that I need to try and feel beautiful because reality society won't accept inwardly beautiful people but they will try and tell you that outward appearance is really what gets guys looking, and many other things that you have to constantly say yes to. Don't get me wrong, I struggle constantly trying to cover up my face and making myself more beautiful because even

 though I don't know if I believe that I'm truly a beautiful person. I tend to believe beauty comes from a different place then shown on the outside.  I love what this quote says about beauty. 

“Beauty has nothing to do with looks, it has everything to do with who you are as a person and how you make others feel about themselves.” 

I could go on but as I know how my brain works, I don't want to be writing a whole paper on beauty. But all in all  beauty is not something someone just is born beautiful. I mean there are some beautiful humans but it's also on the inside. I shouldn't care about trying to perfect my looks on the outside but make it count more on the inside. Make others feel better about themselves.