You are More

What I would tell this child: "fear is a liar, you have overcome a lot since you were adopted. Your past doesn't define you, what was broken in you can be fixed and healed. You shouldn't be afraid to love those you love, because some of them you only get a few years with. Open your heart to love, it's better than fear." Too bad this child as sweet and silly she looks was a pretty broken child who had a hard time trusting people and loving those she loved. I heard this advice years later and I truly regret living the fearful life I lived as a child. I literally was afraid of everything. A week ago I took a Sunday away from people because I was feeling super vulnerable to fear to the point I was ready to scream at whoever started talking to me. As I was processing what I was feeling, I wrote down what I was feeling. And underneath the fear there was pain that I was hiding for so long. It was so deep and so felt so real I started crying. I didn't know what to do so I just sat there crying.  "you are more than the choices you've made. You are more then the problems you've create. You've been remade.

 More in depth about this, ask me in person. Not something I would share on my blog because it feels a little more personal.