What is something that holds you back from being the person you were made to be? Something that stares at you in the face daily taunting you telling you that "you're going to fail and fail over and over." For me it's fear. Fear comes knocking on the door asking if she can stay awhile. You're already sitting with insecurity and anxiety and you think you'll end this gathering soon or they'll get bored and want to leave. So she's allowed in. After awhile you want them to leave, this gathering has become something that pulls you into something that hurts you. They trick you into thinking that this is how the world works. "This is how everyone is living." So by the time they decide to leave, it's only short lived and you're already feeling the weight and feelings that they brought the first time. So instead of shutting them out, they're invited in once again. And this happens over and over. By the time you're worn down and start telling yourself "that you are going to fail, you're not worth it." Everyday becomes harder to get rid of the lies they bring. I was listening to a song during this time called the breakup song. And one verse in the song says "There's no time for you in this story.. I don't have time for you anymore, you don't get to tell me anything anymore because fear you don't own me anymore." Those are the words Iwant to be telling my fear.
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