Stronger Than You Think You Are

You know what it's like to be really disappointed? I couldn't wait to turn 21 because when I turned 21 my first drink was going to be a bloody Mary. I saw movies of all types of drinks but bloody Mary had my heart. Well 3 days before my 21 birthday a friend and I were talking about what my first drink was and I causally said a bloody Mary. That friend was shocked and asked if I knew what it was. And then proceeded to tell me that tomato juice was a big factor in the drink. No one ever feel inclined to mention that to me in any of the moments I had talked about drinking a bloody Mary. They all knew I hate tomatoes and I guess maybe they thought I knew and thought it was weird to be choosing a drink with something in it I didn't like .That's not my biggest disappointment. One of my disappointments is in humans. Right now all around the states there are riots happening because of how one of the systems who should be protecting everyone has been killing innocent people and walking away as if their not to blame. I'm disappointed in how we're treating people. Races, gender, religions. We've allowed so much hatred and corruption deter us from seeing Love, Friendship, compassion and faith. I'm disappointed to look at this world and have to ask myself "Where is the Love?" I'm disappointed at myself for even being one of those people who is often treated people in ways they shouldn't be treated. Not loving them in ways I should be. Lifting up people I'm around with kind words and praying for those who I have a hard time loving. Sometime this week, I kept getting messages from strangers and one kept messaging me asking if I needed protection or if I felt fearful because I was black. And why I didn't share any black lives matter post people were resharing on social media. Don't get me wrong black lives matter as well as every lives matter. I have felt physical pain all week hearing about the news about innocent people dying by people full of hatred and it's wrong and sad.  I believe people are made for better things than they think they are. I believe people can change their hearts and as long as they believe that they can be the change they want to see their lives change. And lastly I believe people who have Jesus in them will forever be living their lives for him and not for themselves. I'm not just writing this for people to read, I'm writing it for myself as well. I know this whole thing is a jumbo mess of writing but I want you to take away one thing from this. Look like love, like Jesus who is love, gracious, just, comforter, near to the brokenhearted, peace and truth. I end this with confidence and trust in humanity. We are stronger together and even stronger with Jesus at our side.